it's official. I am almost crazy. last week we found out that a family that turned in their dossier 2 days before ours got their referral. so there is only one day and maybe one or two families ahead of us in the line up. ahhhhh!!!
and since then my phone is never more than 3 inches from me. my heart races when it rings. I wear something african every day. I keep forcing pete to think about baby boy names and decide on one. and my mind is constantly wondering if today is THE day?!!!
I even bought him a really soft, beautiful, blue blanket yesterday. I couldn't help myself.
I try and play it off like I'm cool. I'm not anxious. it will happen when it happens. but on the inside I have lost it.
I want to see his face. know his story. start another count down.
but in the meantime...I'll be taking care of these beauties.
and we'll be praying for our sweet little guy. and his birth mother. and his care givers. and his country.
I'm ok with crazy. a little crazy never hurt.